JIM: Aw, aw, aw. Is it broken?
LAURA: Now it is just like all the other horses.
JIM: It’s lost its—
LAURA: Horn! It doesn’t matter… . [smiling] I’ll just imagine he had an operation. The horn was removed to make him feel less—freakish!
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It used 2 feel good 2 kno u were proud of me
Like I was walking down an ibeam stuck in the sand sloping down the beach—- felt like a balance I had to concentrate on but only b/c I wanted to, only b/c it felt good.
It’s such a thing that I fell on soft sand, fell so dramatically I could have broken if it had been concrete or somethin
Now Idk what’s the road
I’m looking for
Or if I should choose a different direction n climb high tide.
Used to feel good at the beach w/ u
But not as good
"I think nudity is very pure…I felt comfortable being nude, even before doing the transition. I always felt in love with my body. That’s the way I am."
Inès-Loan Rao for Oyster Mag - Ph. Aingeru Zorita [x]
self discovery tied neatly with a bow.
aight aight aight
i spent the whole bus ride home freaking out
b/c i had seen a storm cloud and a rainforrest and
been to a party full of a few people who i
L o v e who were all dancing around 2 party jams and *classics* and eating bbq and drinking cocktails like st. germaine with botanical gin
all the shit that really
_ticklez my fanzy_
and be4 that i had read for a few hours outside of a coffee shop with a glass of
w H i t e w i n e
and walked down to stare at ducks on the river
and kissed a very handsome boy—— and kissed a very handsome boy.
AND STILL NOTHING
i freaked out b/c someone said “that’s what getting old is like gulp gulp nudge barf”
so i was like
I’m grown up and undelightable.
and i grunched up the fucking huge hill.
with the bus stop at the bottom,
and the house i stayed in at the top.
and i grinched into the kitchen.
where i kept quiet and said something melodramatic like
“ i just don’t know how my day went at all, I can’t stand myself.”
“ my day was fine, ok, just ya know”
and as i monosyllabically chatted i saw a fork on the table which was hiding behind
a glass of water.
and I moved it back and forth——
as each section behind the glass of water magnified and then shrunk,bent around the curve of the glass in reflection and in it’s own bend as it’s own physical self.
i stopped answering the questions i had been allowing 2 b asked of me.
n i laughed and showed everyone in the room who said
“you silly thing, u must b so sleepy. watch the office with us in the living room”
and so i floated thru the prank at the beginning of the television show the office, starring Pam and Dwight n Andy
————————— and then excused myself *distractedly*
to go up to my attic room and proceed
that i had just experienced
an optical aberration n i read some blog posts about
and i went 2 sleep exhausted with the discovery that
im not an undelightable grownup
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Imaginary film stills
Oxford Road Johannesburg
DKNY by Donna Karan circa 1996
from donna karan catalog by mark vanderloo
cropped detail of guinevere van seenus
Specifically vague lines